Friday, May 11, 2007

ShortFatMama Evolving

Over a year ago, I made the switch from Blogger to MSN's Spaces because that's where Cara and Aynde were. Along the way I met Mocha, Eric, Chris, Catholic Mom, the Librarian and many many more. I had a great time, was even featured on MSN's home page once for a week. Then everybody started moving back to Blogger and my bosses blocked my connection to Spaces. I guess they wanted to know they were paying me to work, not blog. How unoriginal!

I haven't updated since January and to be honest, I feel it's largely because I have moved past her persona. I'm done identifying myself soley as a fat chick; it's a vicious circle. I talk about myself as a fat girl, I AM a fat girl. No More.

Some months ago, if you read me before you knew I had joined Weight Watchers and begun a new journey to smaller pant sizes. I'm still working on that goal. Frankly, there are many days when all I want is someone to show me where the zipper is on my fat suit. Most days are just about taking the next step in the path, making the vision a reality through actions and thought. I talk about myself as a shrinking girl, I think shrinking thoughts, take other steps in a shrinking direction and low and behold... I really am shrinking. Visualization. It's scarey stuff, folks.

So here I am, the phoenix rising from the ashes of the fat lady. I look good in orange, don't I?

But it hasn't only been about my need to move away from Short Fat Mama and into MamaChristy, Fairy Godmother To Be. I have been hiding out for another reason. I took another step, one that I am not sure the very spiritual people I like and respect around the blogsphere will support. I hope they will, I hope they'll respect my choice to explore as I respect theirs to stand by a faith that works for them. I have begun exploring alternate religions and am finding much joy, enlightenment and yes, magic of a positive sort in the experience.

Over a year ago I read a book that made me feel I wanted to become a godmother to others. I wanted to live my life in a way that would have a magical, positive affect on others. It's this journey, and life along the way that will make up my blog from here.

I will not be posting on after this. I have moved back here to blogger but am starting fresh. Similiar name, different vein. If you liked MamaChristy before, good. She's still here, there's just less (and more) of her to like!


Aynde said...

how'd you get your picture in there.... I can't get mine on my blog.

Joe said...

love the blog. you may remember me from such high schools as LHS.

Joe Ankeny... what you get when you google your own name. Cheers, hope you are doing well.

Eric said...

Woohoo!!! Welcome back!! :)

It's been so long... I'm glad to hear good things are afoot. :)

Take care,

MamaChristy said...

Hey Aynde, glad to see you figured it out. You're so awesome!

Joe, of course I remember you! I love googling my various incarnations: real and those that exist on the internet only *wink*

Eric, I missed you! I have to come check out your spot. Did I tell you I have started reading the Hitchhiker's series?

MamaChristy said...

Hey Joe, I'm not quite sure what an Afirmative Action Specialist is, but it sounds promising. Hope you stop by again!